How could I have loved such a person? So cold and remorseless. For the first time ever, I think I regret losing my virginity to him. I thought he was so sweet, even after we fell out of love I was okay with it. I should have waited until someone better came along. But maybe underneath they are all like this? Maybe I will be disappointed time after time and end up alone and sad, exactly where I am now. I cry for the death of the person I once thought I knew. I believed his wily lies, phrased with just the right amount of sheepishness and hesitant pausing and earnestness. He is so remorseless. He was so sweet.